Facing drama.

These few days I have been such in a terrible situation. Guess right now problems will be my best companion. Huh. It was a devastated moment for myself, disappointment and cannot believe to what just had happened. It is not once or twice it happened before, but it keeps going and going and going until I cannot imagine when it is actually could stop. Maybe I am too good for giving chances and all, am too kind and weak for someone could took advantage on me. There goes life. But I don't need this kind of life. I am sick of all lies. It felt like someone stabbing my back slowly that it hurts so badly I couldn't even stand straight and just want this life to end. How hurt is that right? I don't need anyone's promises. I had enough of those words, "promise". This is reality man, not like in the movies. The other side of me tell me to give up but on the other side urged me to be tough. I just don't know. Now I know how life could challenge your patience.

All I need now is to be tough.

Even so it left my heart with too much bruises.

STRESS

It is now official! I am fat. I wish that I don't actually care how big I am now. But unfortunately, I DO CARE! It's hard to get in shape. I will do whatever it takes to get my body back! Even if I have to starve, I don't care. I know, I know it is not the right diet but I'm in desperate now. Will continue a good diet right after I can fit at least "M" size again. I have been reading about crash-diet recently, well from what I had read it is not that really not-so-good crashing our diet. It is only good for temporary NOT for a long term period. I once had practicing the diet before and indeed I lose weight fast. From 50 kg to 44kg in just 1 month! I did a little exercise tho, and yet the result is awesome! This time, I will do it again. No matter how hurt and how hungry I am. XD

So envy with those girls who could eat more without worrying getting fat.