Slight changes.

In a sudden, I miss to blog.

I changed my old ID and deleted some old-kinda-trashy-post in it. Trying to do some make-over-blog perhaps? I laughed annoyingly reading the old one. I almost fainted that I wrote such a disaster story. Oh-my. Well, life goes on.

As the world knew (almost) that now I am happily a prego woman. Yes indeed, I am happy and certainly cannot wait for the time I citied myself as a "MOM". A few months back I still managed to get fit into my 27" jeans, however, currently I am terribly stuck in this bloated body which I can only wear limited clothes. I cannot wear jeans. It kills me softly. I cannot wear any of my shirt in the closet. It gives me pain. Thinking about, how to get my figure back in a few months after labor is possible or not drives me almost crazy. I am now 60.9 kg and still will be growing. That is another 13kg added up to my last weight before I found out I am pregnant. Pressure!

Instead of worrying about weight and figure, nervousness for deliver-period is the most distracting thing ever. I have chosen to have natural birth instead of doing the C-section surgery. Am I brave enough to do it? Could I endure the pain? Gosh. Hope everything will be fine. I've been doing some exercises and sometimes jog at the park hoping that it will help me get through the whole labor-process. Lord, give me the strength!

I cannot wait for Kael to come out from the belly. He is now very active kicking my tummy here and there. Bet that he also cannot wait to see the world :) I have tears in my eyes every time I went for scanning. Can't believe that something grows inside me. I saw him in 3-D moaning and smiling, I just cannot stop smiling. Hubby and I have some difficulties in finding his name but then I just go for KAYDEN KAEL. I love the name, even there's some people mispronounce his name.

My back hurts. Uugh.
Mom loves you Kael. Stop kicking too much okay.
:)

Re-painting it with colorful colors.

Looking back for what I did will only cause me drooling with tears. Thought that screwing up especially in most vital stuff in humanity result me to lose EVERYTHING. I did. But something even huge, bigger and tremendous coming right after it. I had repented countless of times, never stop praying that things will get better. I am right. Nothing is effortless. I thought that everyone will say, "I told you so!" but indeed I was wrong. I don't know how to describe this in words. No one leaves me and instead keep supporting me. I never forget this. Never. God has show how deep is His love to me. He never even once leave me behind.

Someone is growing happily inside me. I am so nervous yet the-cannot-wait feeling I just can't help it. Nothing is 'too-early', I am ready for him. Mommy loves you, son.

Chores.

Cleaning rooms is NOT a fun thing to do.

I VOTE HAILYEAHHH!

Finally, oh 2010!

It's been a while since my last post here. I guess I never had a suitable mood to scribble any news here. Oh well, I kinda persuaded myself to spill some flashing news about new years. Not to be too judgmental or anything about what has been going on last year, but indeed I do screwed up most of the time and I can say there was also some achievement which I am personally proud of. Hahahha! 2009 was a really great year, which I can say literally. I met those who inspiring, and some of jerks as well. :P Randomly, I somehow could not erased sweet memorable moments and dramas happening around me. I deeply apologized to those who I hurt unintentionally. :D

Pointing out the New Year's Eve was a speechless description. Celebrating it with loved ones is what I'm looking forward to and there, I have it! God riddance, I'm out of words! Surprisingly, it was the best new year ever. I know who I should thanked for that. ^___^

I just hope that this year will bring more exciting and fun drama to play a role into it. :)

The L word.

I FELL FOR SOMEONE.

...................there's just no end of it......