Ongoing Issue :(

I used to be this woman.

and now, I am this HUGE

Yeah, the one with gray shirt. It's me.

"...can I just accept the fact that I'm overweight and be happy?"

Random.

Feelin' Like a G6

This blog have been abandoned for quite some time now. Apology to that. I just cannot find a perfect time to burst out here. Now, here I am uttering some piece of crap (?) or maybe not. Well, things were going surprisingly exciting. Indeed it is. Being a mother for 8 months and a wife for almost a year now. What's not to be excited? Sometimes I'm off balance, get stressed out almost everything happened around me. But anyways, thankfully I'm still here, survived.

I'm in my 8th semester now.

Thank God.

But that's only the beginning of a relieved statement. Yes. Finally, I'm in my last semester of Animal Science's degree. There's a lot of whining, complaining, laziness, and oh-what-so-stress-life I'll be facing throughout this wonderful 8th semester. Completing my research is another side of the chapter. Hope I could get through and will end up achieving scroll by end of this year.

Flipping the page to what's happening in my little-almost-perfect-family, well, my lovely darling Azra is now eight months. Despite being so adorable 24/7 but he is really good showing off his skills. Let's see what he could do to make mommy get exhaust

ed EVERYDAY.

Grabbing and pulling mummy's hair. CHECK

Crawling and trying to hit the walls. CHECK.

Crying so hard to get attention. CHECK

Get angry when no Pocoyo for the day. CHECK

Force mummy to play up and down aka jumping. CHECK

Go to the edge of the bed to see the floor. CHECK

There's a lot to write but these are the things that he always do.

Thankfully he is so cute and knows how to make innocent faces when mummy are about to get mad. Awwh, mummy loves you darling!

He's adorable tiny creature!

Anywho, that's it for now. Write some more later!

Toodles!

Facing drama.

These few days I have been such in a terrible situation. Guess right now problems will be my best companion. Huh. It was a devastated moment for myself, disappointment and cannot believe to what just had happened. It is not once or twice it happened before, but it keeps going and going and going until I cannot imagine when it is actually could stop. Maybe I am too good for giving chances and all, am too kind and weak for someone could took advantage on me. There goes life. But I don't need this kind of life. I am sick of all lies. It felt like someone stabbing my back slowly that it hurts so badly I couldn't even stand straight and just want this life to end. How hurt is that right? I don't need anyone's promises. I had enough of those words, "promise". This is reality man, not like in the movies. The other side of me tell me to give up but on the other side urged me to be tough. I just don't know. Now I know how life could challenge your patience.

All I need now is to be tough.

Even so it left my heart with too much bruises.

STRESS

It is now official! I am fat. I wish that I don't actually care how big I am now. But unfortunately, I DO CARE! It's hard to get in shape. I will do whatever it takes to get my body back! Even if I have to starve, I don't care. I know, I know it is not the right diet but I'm in desperate now. Will continue a good diet right after I can fit at least "M" size again. I have been reading about crash-diet recently, well from what I had read it is not that really not-so-good crashing our diet. It is only good for temporary NOT for a long term period. I once had practicing the diet before and indeed I lose weight fast. From 50 kg to 44kg in just 1 month! I did a little exercise tho, and yet the result is awesome! This time, I will do it again. No matter how hurt and how hungry I am. XD

So envy with those girls who could eat more without worrying getting fat.