Re-painting it with colorful colors.

Looking back for what I did will only cause me drooling with tears. Thought that screwing up especially in most vital stuff in humanity result me to lose EVERYTHING. I did. But something even huge, bigger and tremendous coming right after it. I had repented countless of times, never stop praying that things will get better. I am right. Nothing is effortless. I thought that everyone will say, "I told you so!" but indeed I was wrong. I don't know how to describe this in words. No one leaves me and instead keep supporting me. I never forget this. Never. God has show how deep is His love to me. He never even once leave me behind.

Someone is growing happily inside me. I am so nervous yet the-cannot-wait feeling I just can't help it. Nothing is 'too-early', I am ready for him. Mommy loves you, son.