It ain't easy!

Nothing much have been going on lately. I am exhausted with classes and still struggling not to past the date line for assignment. I am a MOM, a WIFE and a STUDENT. Ain't it's just a brief to say it, not to mention how the hella I am going trough each day living life as "those" person. Sometimes it can be too stressful and sometimes there's this feeling that deep inside I'm actually enjoying it. Well, I guess so. Being a mom is not easy, especially when the baby is still small and need 200% nurturing. I have to balance life as a mom as well as life as a student. Although I am tired and stress but seeing my baby grow up with love is enough to tell me that all the sweat is worth it. I have to wait less than a year for me to finally graduate! I am desperately wanting a JOB!

I am seriously have to be patient for my scroll.

:)

SCHOOL!

It's my 7th semester already, and I can't wait to graduate!

Speaking of final year, I have tonnes of assignment and project need to be done. This year around will be very hectic! I have classes on weekdays AND weekends. How's that sound? Whoa! Busy busy and busy! Class only started for almost a week now and I already have 5 assignments. Not to mention, my final year project too. Oh my. Plus, I have a son who still needs full-attention. Baby and studies. I might face minor problem towards that, but I hope I still could control everything. Well, lets just hope I could :D

SPAIN!

I'm watching Spain vs Germany now. Who will make it through to the final round? I hope so, it's NOT Germany. hahaha! Well the prediction is Spain 2 and Germany 1.

Lets just hope the BEST team to win.

Pique, ko la harapan!

:))

The road to success is not straight. There is a curve called failure, a loop called confusion, speed bumps called friends, red lights called enemies, and caution lights called family. You will have flats called jobs. But if you have a spare called determination, an engine called perseverance, insurance called faith, and a driver called Jesus, you will make it to a place called success.

People changed.

Reminiscing about past was truly hit me real hard. There goes the sweet and juicy moments with friends I always hang out with (used to) and also the "incident" that pouch my heart, and I'm not planning to talk about it - again. :)

The thing is, I missed them, who I assume to be my other family. Like brothers and sisters. But things have changed so far. For me, currently, there are huge walls that separate and some sort of isolation going on. Sometimes it bothers me a LOT. I always have to switch my brain to another part so that I wont kept thinking about unnecessary stuff. I am so glad that some of them still with me. But the feeling of being alone sometimes I failed to get rid of. Deep inside, I missed to go up front doing praise and worship. For the time being, or I don't know for how long I have to back off. I guess I am not that 'approved' to do things what I used to do back then. Well, it is hard for me to mingle with everyone else again. May be my self esteem has just gone somewhere. Nevertheless, I am not losing my faith to Him. Being able to pray every day is more than enough for me. I have never felt blessed and such content in this life more than before.

Friends who always be there for me ( you know who you are girlfriends), I could not expressed how I really appreciate all those words that strengthen every second of my life. I don't want to be a cry-baby here, but I miss you guys already!

Such an issue.

I hate the fact that I am gaining weight and NOT losing weight. I somehow NEED to buy a weight-scale so that I can control my eating and stuff (?), should I? The last time I checked I was furious. 55.5 kg, lucky number. I also hate the FACT that I could not fit into my 27 waist size jeans! The most horrible part I also cannot even fit into my 28 size jeans! Oh-my. For this time being, I can only wear my form-5 jeans, which back then I was quite chubby and I am so not going to keep this shape longer! I need to diet. Major seriously need to diet. *Sigh*

On my last visit to the clinic I was given this some sort of pills. Well it is for the family planning and stuff, you know, pills to keep woman away from pregnancy. I am consuming it for now, and I am struggling to control my eating behavior. I don't know what the hell this pills are doing with my hormones! Oh why why why weight is always an issue for me! Can I just eat and not gaining weight? At first I wanted to have the IUCD but the doctor wont let me. I have to wait 9 months then I could continue with the procedure for IUCD.

I seriously have to kick my butt off to the gym!
Or at least exercise!